Honestly, these past few days, finding a gift in the moment has been difficult. So difficult, that some days I didn’t count. As I sat with a friend who found out life-altering news, I cried out in my heart “Now, father? What gift is there right here?” And then I remembered Paul saying that we present our requests and anxieties to God with thanksgiving.
I will be the first to admit that I would rather wallow in pity, bitterness, and frustration then give thanks for the hard moments in life. But if I’m not giving thanks, where will I find joy? In myself? When things go according to “my plan?” I’ve discovered that giving thanks when I don’t want to is simply a way of teaching my heart to satisfy itself in the gospel. That’s really all it is…it realigns my focus and my thoughts away from myself and onto the cross.
So here are a few snapshots of this week:
#100 The Garden
Safe Haven has a community garden that the kids help maintain and then they get to eat the produce or bring it back to their families! it is such a blessing, and the kids all love watering it.
#104 Fresh Cucumbers from said garden
Yes…that is writing on my hand. Made a list of stuff I needed…still forgot two things on the list. Love it.
It rained (and hailed) so hard here, and it totally cooled everything down. Such an awesome reminder of God’s power.
We needed some extra help this week, and a local church totally stepped up and filled the need. Their help has been wonderful!
#115. Trying new things.
I had sushi for the first time the other day! It was…gross. But I still tried it, which is a really big step for me. Side note: I also had traditional Portuguese food last night. Totally delicious.
God is teaching me so much about how even when I think I am safe, competent, and capable (my mindset my entire life before I came to Newark) – I’m really not because He is the one working in me. And when I don’t think I am safe, competent, or capable, it’s perfect because I have to totally rely on Him. I’m learning to live in this land of total powerlessness…and it’s radically freeing.
Remember gift #98? Well, now it is available for your listening pleasure on Gumroad. Enjoy! Link: https://gumroad.com/l/mhas
#128. Cheesin’ it.
I’ll leave you with this picture of my spunky friend Tatamia..I hope her smile warms your heart like it does mine!
Thanks for reading, friend!
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6